when I told my mom and stepmom about my abuser, they pointed out that I should not have been dating at 13.
[Why do you need feminism?]
Placebo - Meds
I was alone, falling free, trying my best not to forget
Yesterday I noticed some very light spotting. When I say light, I mean LIGHT. I went to go pee, and on the toilet paper there was the slight discoloration from the blood. It was almost undetectable. I put on a panty liner and went about my day. A few hours later, I went to the bathroom and noticed that there was barely anything on the liner. The spotting has continued today, but it is still super light. I’m not too worried about any of it though because this is normal. I just hope I end up one of the lucky ones and not get my period at all on this thing.
For a couple of days, my arm has been getting itchy around that area. Not excessively. Not enough for me to be bothered by it. I think it’s just because the insertion site still has some scabbing and also the implant itself must sort of tickle the nerves under the skin.
ON TO MOOD SWINGS! I am prone to depression, and I’ve mentioned that I’ve been feeling very insecure lately. Tomorrow I finally have an appointment with my therapist. It will be my first time meeting him. A lot of this could have to do with the fact that next Thursday marks 8 years since the passing of a very important relative of mine. He’s been in my thoughts a lot lately. If my mood swings DO have anything to do with the birth control, I’m going to hold out at least three months to see if my body adjusts. It is a hormone based birth control, so it wouldn’t be surprising. We will see!
The bruise is almost completely gone now. I think I’ll have a very small scar from the insertion site, but it’s whatevs! I did a close up since the bruise is so faded. I also wanted to make sure the insertion site was visible.